Im ecstatic about new beginnings but with everything happening so fast there's this little voice constantly asking myself if I am capable of really doing this.
Isn't it so funny how we can strive to do something and once that opportunity presents itself we all of a sudden have doubts. The pressure of feeling good enough begins to weigh on us and now all of those precious seeds we've planted are now going to waste because of our lack of confidence. We first question, "Where are the fruits of our labor?", and once they begin to grow and we can physically see them we are startled by doubt. Startled at the amount of crops that have grown. We question if we are even ready to begin plucking and pulling our crops. How can we work so hard in life being a farmer working towards our goals and aspirations, constantly plowing, sewing seeds, and plucking weeds to ensure the prosperity of our harvest; But when the harvest comes we are scared to take what we've worked so hard on to the market for sell? Scared to set up our own table to display our crops for others to see.
This is what you've been working at, patiently waiting for your moment and it's here. Why wouldn't you take that chance? Do we have so little faith in our own crops? Are our crops not good enough to be sold at the market? It would be so silly of you to have spent all of this time on something you've never intended to sale. All of the late nights, early mornings, mini melt downs, and frustrations are all in vain now. You worked so hard on a master piece you will never display. It'll just be a hidden treasure no one will encounter and you'll be left with the "I wonder what would have happen thoughts?".
See here's the thing, we can work so hard at something and want something so bad and allow doubts and fears to bind us in a stage of stagnancy. We never fully act on our gifts because we are too worried about what may or may not happen. We have little time to entertain those thoughts of doubt. Excuse me, let me correct myself, WE HAVE NO TIME TO ENTERTAIN THOSE THOUGHTS OF DOUBT. Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. Honestly there's no such thing as failure. We have to get to the point where we actually believe failure is NOT an option and believe that we can accomplish anything we set our minds to. Hell, if it takes you telling yourself this everyday, a couple of times a day, or even every dang hour do what's necessary to get that embedded in your head.
Now I'm not saying that I don't struggle with this as well. I have to remind myself constantly that I am capable of accomplishing any and everything I put my mind to. Writing these blogs seems to keep me on track. No longer will I waste the time I've used to plant and sew these seeds into my garden of dreams, to watch them grow and not fully seize the opportunity. Im taking my harvest to
the market I hope to see you there!!
With Love,
<3 CarrieSierra
